774: C774 True Feeling

C774 True Feeling

Qiu Tong nodded and continued, "Actually, with the development of technology now, it might not be completely impossible. However, I heard from my friends in the hospital that there are many types of congenital infertility. The kind that Hai Zhu has, as well as the medical technology currently in the country, we don't have any way to overcome it. There is no precedent for cure. "

I looked at Qiu Tong. "Do you think I'm a man who can take responsibility and tolerance?"

Qiu Tong said: "If you just said that you do not value the importance of succession is the heart of the matter, I will think that you are. But I don't want to force the truth out of you. Even if you value it highly, no one will blame you or despise you. I think the same way, and I will understand you. Actually, if I were Hai Zhu, I would do the same. After all, the environment and traditional practices in which we live affect our thinking. "

I said, "I want to know how you feel."

Qiu Tong bit her lips and lowered her head in silence for a moment. Then she looked up at me and said firmly, "My greatest hope is for you to be happy! And I can't give you anything. And Hai Zhu, the person I think can give you the most happiness around you at the moment, she loves you so much.

Besides, right now, she needs her lover's comfort the most, and your role is irreplaceable. Love is selfish, but one's conscience can be selfless. Being able to see your and Hai Zhu's happiness is my greatest happiness. It's also my happiness. "

I was silent.

Qiu Tong continued, "Actually, I know that you are a responsible man. I know that you and Hai Zhu have a deep relationship and you will never be able to let go of him. I appreciate your affection, whether it is love, kinship or friendship.

"What I value most is a man who is loyal to his friends. And between us, there is an unsurpassable reality, we are all people in reality, our personalities are inherent in us, character determines fate, and since fate cannot be changed, then, we need to face reality, face reality, respect reality, and live a good life in reality. "

Saying that, Qiu Tong stood up, "After saying so much, perhaps there are some things that I shouldn't have said. I don't want to ask you what you must do, what you must not do, you have the right to choose. But, I think, you may know the way forward. From the bottom of my heart, I wish to see you, your happiness. As long as you are happy, I am happy.

Love is giving, not taking, giving, not taking. It was worth it to give up everything, even to sacrifice, for the one who loved him. Men and women, if they want to have a happy, romantic life, they have to take on that responsibility. "

Qiu Tong's voice was a little sour and helpless, as well as sad, cold, and stubborn and resolute.

After that, Qiu Tong left.

After returning to the dormitory at night, I didn't sleep at all. I smoked cigarettes in the living room for an entire night, repeatedly thinking about what Qiu Tong had said. I thought about the past and the present with Qiu Tong, and I couldn't stop thinking about the scene with Hai Zhu in the past.

My heart sometimes pained, sometimes worried, sometimes sad, sometimes helpless, sometimes sorry, sometimes lost, sometimes lost, sometimes sighing.

I can imagine how much pain Hai Zhu had to endure during this time, both physically and emotionally. Furthermore, she could not tell anyone about this. Even Haifeng, and her parents, she could only silently bear it in her heart.

I can feel that when Qiu Tong said those words to me today, her heart was filled with great helplessness and pain. All of this, she could only endure and not let anyone else know.

After a night of struggle between contradiction and entanglement as well as between dream and reality, in the end, Qiu Tong's words took control of my heart, and responsibility and conscience filled my brain. Yes, at this moment, Hai Zhu needs her most beloved to comfort her, and this person is me! Yes, love is selfish, but a person's conscience cannot be selfish!

Hai Zhu was very loyal to me and came to my side when I was at my lowest, never leaving me. Now that she's like this, I can't let her down, I can't let her down. The thought of this made my heart ache, and the guilt and remorse in my heart intensified.

At this moment, I didn't think about whether my feelings for Hai Zhu were love or kinship. I only knew that she truly loved me, that I couldn't leave Hai Zhu in any way, that I had to return to her, that I had to give her happiness, that I couldn't live up to my conscience, that I had to be someone responsible. She left me because she didn't want to hurt me, and I wanted to go back to her so that she wouldn't be hurt again.

After dawn, I washed my face with cold water and drove directly to Hai Zhu's company.

Since he had just started work, he did not have many customers. The clerks were out and the company was quiet.

Hai Zhu wasn't here, but Sweetie Ru was on duty.

Sweetie Ru was happy to see me.

"Brother Yi, Sister Hai Zhu has just gone out with the director of the planning department to discuss a business." Sweetie Ru let me into Hai Zhu's office, poured me another glass of water, and looked at me with a smile. "Well — I miss you so much these days, and of course, Sister Hai Zhu misses you the most. She's always sitting in her office in a daze when she's free, and she keeps a picture of you in her drawer, and when she's free, she takes it out and reads it herself, secretly crying."

Hearing this, I felt a little sour in my heart. I smiled at Sweetie Ru. "You go out and busy yourself first. I'll sit by myself for a while. I'll wait for her return."

Sweetie Ru lightly closed the door and left.

I sat down at Hai Zhu's desk and looked down to see that the key to the middle drawer was still in the keyhole. It seemed that Hai Zhu had left in a hurry and hadn't had time to lock it.

After a moment's hesitation, I opened the drawer.

The first thing I saw was a framed photograph of me lying in a drawer. That was the autumn of this year. I took Hai Zhu to visit the Hammer Island Scenic Spot. On the lawn in front of the Hammer Island Hotel, I jumped into the air and did a flying kick. Hai Zhu caught it for me. Hai Zhu took a lot of pictures, then chose the most satisfactory wash out and put it in a frame on her desk.

After watching in silence for a while, I sighed, picked up the photo frame and looked at it for a long time. When I put it back, I saw a pink diary.2

I gently picked up the diary and slowly stroked the cover. After hesitating for a long time, I finally opened the diary.

"Brother, this is a letter to you that will never be sent out! Brother, I left you. The moment I left you, I wanted to call you brother again, but I didn't call out.

I once said that I will hold you tight and never let you go. But now, I have voluntarily let go of your hand." I left you because I loved you. Because I love you, I don't want to see you unhappy; because I love you, I don't want to see you fighting back; because I love you, I don't want to see you suffering; because I love you, I'm willing to let you go.

I used to think you were a kite in my hand. As long as I held that string in my hand, no matter where you flew to, I would belong to you. However, the moment I stepped out of the hospital and saw you, I immediately understood: I am going to lose you! Because there's a kind of love called letting go.

When I gradually began to accept the explanation of you and Xia Yu's matter, when I gradually began to accept the reality of you participating in the underworld, I once thought that you and I could continue, that you and Xia Yu might really have a misunderstanding, that you might be forced to participate in the underworld, that once the misunderstanding was resolved, as long as you got rid of your helplessness, we would still be as blissful and sweet as before. However, a diagnosis sheet had turned my long fears and speculations into reality and shattered all my dreams.

Being unable to give birth means that there will be no children between you and me. It means that your family will have lost their joss stick and no one will be able to continue the family line. Maybe you don't care about this, but I do. I can ignore you, but I can't ignore your parents. So, in the face of reality, I have no choice but to let go, to leave. "

Seeing this, I took a deep breath of smoke. The Cyan Smoke was filling my eyes, and my eyes were a little astringent.

I rubbed my eyes and continued reading.

"Looking at your picture, thinking of you, reminiscing about the past, unknowingly, we have been together for such a long time, every little thing that happened at the beginning, every moment lingering in my memory, my entire mind was recalling every little thing that happened after I met you, the minutes that we spent together, suddenly there was a kind of unexplainable joy in my heart.

I can't go into the marriage hall with you. I can't be a good wife to you and your children. I can't be your parents' perfect daughter-in-law. I know that if you want, if you want, someone will love you. There are plenty of women around you who like you. I wish you happiness, whoever you are!

Promise me that you will live a good life and find someone who loves you as much as you love her. If you are happy, then everything is good. You have to protect yourself well and hope that you can get rid of the evil path soon. We are just commoners.

Seeing this, my eyes moistened.

I went on reading:

"Perhaps my choice will break your heart, perhaps it will hurt your heart, perhaps you will hate me too. I hope you respect my choice. Choosing to leave you is a helpless choice for me. It is also a release, perhaps a happiness for you; it is a helplessness to choose the wrong person at the right time; it is a regret to choose the right person at the wrong time; it is a regret to choose the wrong person at the wrong time.

I really want to say sorry to you, I'm sorry, I really love you, I love you, but I'm sorry, because I love you, I want to leave you. I hope you're happy because I love you! As long as you're happy, I'm happy! Because I love you, I should let you go! Because I know of a kind of love called — Give it up! That is my deepest love for you.

Brother, darling, I left you and I'm not coming back. When I still love you, but this love has become your burden, but this love is already a pain, then, I choose to let go! I am not lucky to leave you, you would be happier without me. "Brother, good luck."

Seeing this, tears blurred my eyes, my heart pain, sad and tender tears quietly fell from my face.

Unable to bear it any longer, I closed the diary, put it back in its place, put my head on my forehead, and continued to shed silent tears.

After a long time, I calmed down. I stood up and walked to the washbasin by the door. I wiped my face with a wet towel, then sat down on the sofa, lost in thought.

My eyes strayed to the side of the bookcase, where several magazines lay in the inconspicuous corner of the top shelf.

I stood up and walked over to open the cupboard door. I flipped through the magazines, and suddenly a piece of white paper slipped out of one and fell to the floor.

I bent down to pick it up and took a casual look. It was a medical certificate.

I look carefully, this is the diagnosis that decides Hai Zhu's fate.

I sat back down on the couch and read the diagnosis over and over again.

pqdm.com