214: C214 If Love

C214 If Love

That night, Yin Lan and Faang Yuanxi had dinner and went straight to Vince's room. Vince was still sleeping peacefully on the bed. The gentle light flowed in the room. His long and thick eyelashes were cut into pieces by his closed eyes. As he breathed evenly, his chest seemed to have some strength. It was not as weak as it was in the morning.

"Mr. Fang, Miss Yin." The doctor came over and took off the thermometer that was placed on Vince's body.

"How is it?" Vince asked. Yin Lan looked at the doctor and saw that he was looking at the thermometer. She was a little worried.

The doctor smiled when he saw the thermometer. "It's okay. His fever has gone down. If nothing goes wrong, he should wake up tomorrow."

"Really?" Yin Lan's charming face revealed surprise.

"How dare I lie to you?" The doctor nodded vigorously and answered sincerely.

"Thank you." Yin Lan looked at Vince who was still sleeping and the uneasiness in her heart was finally relieved.

When Faang Yuanxi heard the doctor's answer, he looked at Yin Lan, who was at ease. He put his hand on her shoulder and whispered, "Okay. Since he is going to wake up, you should have a good rest. Don't forget, your body is also very weak now."

Yin Lan's body, which had just softened, suddenly stiffened. Then, she turned her head to look at Faang Yuanxi. Those dark brown eyes seemed to have never changed, just like how gentle they were back then.

"Then let's go out first."

"Alright." Faang Yuanxi held her and walked outside.

The two of them walked in the long and quiet corridor. The night wind came from nowhere and circled the corridor. Faang Yuanxi was worried that Yin Lan would catch a cold. He took off his coat and draped it over her body. He said gently, "You haven't recovered yet. You have to be careful."

Yin Lan wrapped her coat around her body and looked at the dark night outside. She suddenly turned around. "Faang Yuanxi, walk with me."

Faang Yuanxi looked at Yin Lan, who had just calmed down and appeared worried again. His heart trembled slightly and he nodded.

The wind outside was much stronger than the wind in the room. In addition, the night was already cold. Yin Lan, who was walking on the lawn, once again wrapped her coat tightly. She walked along the outer edge of the lawn without stopping. She walked straight ahead. It seemed like she had a goal and also seemed to be walking around randomly. The moon hanging above their heads was round and bright. The pure white dim light landed on their backs and moistened the ground under their feet.

After walking for ten minutes, Faang Yuanxi saw that Yin Lan did not speak, so he did not speak either. This kind of scene of walking side by side was once the blueprint of the future that he had hoped for the most. The moonlight was light and the night wind accompanied her. She happened to be beside him. Coincidentally, he was beside her. They were together, and in this limited space, the outline of the future could be seen.

"Faang Yuanxi." Yin Lan chose a place with a chair and a round table and stood there. She turned her head to look at the person beside her.

"Huh?" Faang Yuanxi met her gaze and answered softly.

The two of them were in the dim moonlight. They were dark and raised their heads.

"You know about my poisoning, don't you?"

Faang Yuanxi's soft eyebrows slightly furrowed, raising the creases between his eyebrows. "I know, but you will be fine."

Yin Lan smiled and sat down on the chair. She looked at the unknown future that was hidden in the darkness and shook her head. "If you can, I hope you do not care about me."

Hearing her faint voice of giving up, Faang Yuanxi was shocked to the point his heart tightened. He bent down in front of her and held her hand tightly. He did not understand. "Why?"

"Because I am tired." Yin Lan answered calmly. Her tone was stubborn.

"Lan." Faang Yuanxi saw that Yin Lan's words were full of helplessness and could not help but tighten his grip on her hand, "What happened while I was not around? Tell me, I can help you share the burden, but don't ask for death with all your heart, okay?"

Yin Lan's gaze fell back to the hand tightly held in Faang Yuanxi's hand. Her clear eyes suddenly became misty. "I'm really tired, no matter if it's my body or my heart. " In this world, I don't have any relatives. I don't have a lover, I don't have a home. I have no myself. I don't want to live like this, and I don't want to be someone else's burden. "I don't want to be someone's weakness. What I want is this peace and tranquility of death."

No! " Faang Yuanxi listened to Yin Lan's desperate words. His heart was about to break. For a moment, he ignored his own plans and threw away his calmness. He said anxiously, "You don't have any family. I will be your family. " You don't have a lover. I can be your lover. I will give you a stable home, as long as you don't give up."

Yin Lan heard Faang Yuanxi's panicked voice and looked at his eyes that were full of pain. She smiled, "Faang Yuanxi, you must have your own plan to escape death. I don't want to know, and I don't want to ask. This is your freedom. You are free to do whatever you want. But you know very well that what you promise may not be what you can give me. "

Faang Yuanxi looked at her in shock. He thought that he had hidden everything, but he did not expect Yin Lan to be so sharp and see through his disguise so quickly.

Yin Lan saw that he did not refute and continued, " And even if you can abandon all of this and become my family, or even my lover, and give me a home, what I want is what I want. And what I want is what I cannot get. So forget it. I don't want to force or get involved in many things. Right now, I can only find a quiet place to peacefully live my life. "

"Lan." Faang Yuanxi's squatting body suddenly released his strength and directly sat on the ground. He didn't want to let go of her. His voice was no longer as gentle as before, but it had a touch of truth that touched one's heart. "Before I decided to participate in these disputes, I told myself that I should not be soft-hearted. Even if I were to face an enemy of yours, I would not be soft-hearted. " However, all the preparations, all the armor... All the killing intent will shatter the moment I see you. You can't feel the feelings of the Party when I first saw you, and you can't understand how much suffering it is now when I hold your hand. You're right. I must have come back after thousands of efforts for something. I won't give up. But even so, "I still want to ask you impulsively."

Yin Lan's gaze followed his words and fell into his eyes that were covered in dust and frost.

"If I am willing to leave, are you willing to live for me?"

Her gaze seemed to be frozen by time as it penetrated deep into his unguarded heart. At that moment, her heart was moved. But it was only a surge of emotion.

"Faang Yuanxi." She pulled out Faang Yuanxi's hand, which was holding her. She bent her legs and knelt on the ground. She hugged him and said, "Thank you so much for what you said in order to keep me alive. I'm also grateful that you're willing to free yourself for me, but impulsiveness is only impulsive. It is only a moment, not a lifetime. When I see your heart, I also feel the warmth that you want to give me. But I'm sorry. I still said the same thing. You wanted to give it to me. It's not what I wanted. "

Faang Yuanxi listened to Yin Lan's rational and calm words. Even if he could sacrifice himself to this extent, she was still unwilling to accept it. This love that had persisted for half of her life would eventually become a speck of dust in her memories. He gently closed his eyes and did not hug her back. This hug might be Yin Lan's true feelings for him the most, but it was just as she said. This was not what he wanted.

Perhaps this was the last time he treated her with his heart in this life. After that, he would hide his heart and hide his feelings. He would fight for himself and live for himself.

Yin Lan gave him a tenderness that could only be reciprocated and then let go of him. She took off the coat that she was wearing and draped it over his body again. She looked at him. Her eyes, which were dyed with moonlight, were clear and without any impurities. "Faang Yuanxi, I know you hate a lot of people," she said. But I want to tell you something, "Faang Yuanxi said. Even though hatred is strong, what is stronger than it is still instinctive love. Just as you told me before, your father must want you to live happily. Not to struggle in hatred and pain for the rest of your life. The world was very big, and not everyone had to pursue fame and fortune in the form of moths to the flame. I understand it too late. Losing too much, I hope you won't be like me. You'll only know your true feelings until you die. "

Faang Yuanxi looked at her quietly. Her words and her voice had become a dream that could never be reached in his life.

"Who is the person in your heart?"

Yin Lan was suddenly startled when she heard his question. She then shook her head. "It's all in the past. It doesn't matter who it is."

"Then does he know about your current situation?"

Yin Lan looked away and shook her head. "I don't think he did before, but he should know now."

"Then why don't you go back to his side?"

"Because he has more important things to do, just like you. " I don't want to drag him down, and he should be able to match someone better than me, so I won't go back. "

"Then are you willing?"

Yin Lan quietly clenched her hands, "The truth is so, it is understandable."

As she spoke, she propped herself up on the edge of the chair and stood up.

Faang Yuanxi deliberately supported her but was avoided by her without leaving a trace. Hence, he lowered his hands.

"Faang Yuanxi, can you promise me not to involve me in your dispute?" She turned away from Faang Yuanxi and asked in a low voice.

Faang Yuanxi's expression changed slightly. His face was as dark as the abyss, against the moonlight.

Yin Lan did not hear his answer, but she also understood his silence. This seemed to have become the best answer that someone would not admit or deny. She gently exhaled. "I know."

She walked forward.

Faang Yuanxi watched her walk forward. She was so thin, so thin, so lonely, and her heart was crushed. But she was right. The current him was not Faang Yuanxi who liked her all the time. He was a malicious spirit that crawled out of the abyss of death. What he wanted to do was to make those people pay with blood.

The current him could not give him a promise, so she would not accept it.

She had seen through it thoroughly and understood it deeply.

Then she should also understand that it was impossible for him not to make use of her.

Yin Lan who walked in front silently cried. Everything had changed. Be it things or people, they were no longer the same as before. She could pretend that she did not know and continue to be immersed in the joy of Faang Yuanxi's resurrection. She could also let Faang Yuanxi find something to cure her. However, she had never given him hope before. How could she give him the right to despair and make him give up everything for her after he was reborn again?

A sincere love was not a weapon that could hurt him. You could not ask for it shamelessly just because he loved you.

From Faang Yuanxi's expression, she could tell that their stance might change from this moment onwards.

She would not sit and wait for death.0

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