43: Chapter 43: Confusing Your Heart

Chapter 43: Confusing Your Heart

"Hurry up and come in!" I didn't think it was good to chat at the door like this, so I quickly invited Han Anli into the house. 1

Sitting on the sofa, he sized up the furniture around him. Because the last time he came to my house, he had always been concerned about the injury on my leg and did not pay attention to the decoration style of my house. He didn't expect that not only did my articles stand out, but my taste in things was also very elegant.

Actually, my home was very simple. Because I liked the simple European and American style, I used some simple wooden furniture. Suddenly, he noticed the porcelain doll on the TV cabinet. "The doll you put on the TV cabinet is a bit like you."

I looked at the pair of exquisite dolls. They were found by Zhang Shiyang and I in the junk market many years ago. Because of its exquisite workmanship, they immediately attracted my attention. However, it was a treasure that the owner had kept for a long time and did not want to sell it to me. It took me a long time to buy it. This was also Zhang Shiyang first gift to me.

Now that he saw the pair of dolls, he remembered me and Zhang Shiyang back then. I couldn't help but laugh bitterly and say," I originally wanted to throw it away. If you like it, I' ll give it to you."

Han Anli also saw the loneliness on my face and asked carefully," Did you buy it with Zhang Shiyang?" He felt a little annoyed by his rashness.

I nodded and said," Yes, I want to bury my memories in the past." Thinking of the novel that was filled with memories, I continued," I want to start over recently and forget everything from before."

"What about that novel?" Han Anli had already guessed that I wanted to give up on the novel from my words and recent break. Since I wanted to bury it, then the novels equivalent to my diary should be buried together.

I looked at Han Anli eyes that had already guessed the truth. I could no longer continue to lie to my best friend like this and said," I might give up on this novel." He watched as I wrote this novel and carefully instructed me to complete every chapter. I think he had the right to know about it.

"Is it because you are under too much pressure recently?" He asked. He thought that no matter how strong a person was, their mentality would collapse if they met the current situation. My current situation was just because there was too much pressure in my heart and I could only use my books to vent my anger.

Hearing his question, I couldn't continue pretending to be happy in front of him. I lowered my head in frustration and said," Anli, I really ca n' t write anymore." No matter what I wrote, I didn't feel anything at all.

He looked at my furrowed brows and gently comforted me," You're just bound by the previous situation." It was not scary to have no inspiration for the time being, but losing confidence like this was undoubtedly fatal.

"But..." I raised my head to look at his concerned eyes and said," I thought of Zhang Shiyang the moment I saw my previous work." This was also an important reason why I couldn't continue writing. That real novel was undoubtedly the deepest poison in my heart.

"Then why don't you find something else to do recently and forget about the novel for now?" Han Anli looked at my pained expression and felt extremely distressed." However, you can't just give up writing. Think about it, you' ve already reached this point. Are you really willing to give up here?"

"I... "I'm not willing, but I' ve really decided." His words touched my hard heart and touched the softest part of my heart. I was hesitant to tell the editor because of my unwillingness.

"This is just a reversal of your emotions due to various kinds of pressure." He held my hand and looked into my eyes, saying word by word," I tried to give up because of something, but in the end, I persisted."

"Then, do you think I should continue?" Now, I was really confused about the path of writing. If I were in the middle of a river, I wouldn't be able to find a way out.

"Yes, you can put this novel down for now. "Wait until you really want to finish this novel." He had come up with a solution. Now that my novels were still at the top of the list, there would still be a large number of new readers watching them every day. If they didn't update them all the time, it would definitely cause a bigger stir, so they could only minimize the losses.

"Off the shelf?" "Can I really do this?" I looked at his serious expression in surprise. I had never thought that the idea of getting off the shelf would be the best solution when I thought about how many fans urged me.

"But I'm afraid I wo n' t be able to complete this novel in my entire life." I said dejectedly. I still don't have much confidence in myself. I still think that my previous success was due to luck.

"Then write another novel." Han Anli said, since I don't want to finish that novel, it's the perfect way to start a new novel. This way, I can not only worry about my feelings, but also not give up writing.

"Then can I still succeed like before?" I looked at his sincere eyes and asked. Since I was about to make it through the website, I still hope to get the support of my readers. Therefore, I was still very nervous about opening a new book.

"Yes, with your talent, you can definitely create more glory." He continued to encourage him. He believed that gold would always shine. Moreover, the previous novels had completely accumulated my popularity. As long as I wrote a new book, I would definitely succeed. My current low point was to sharpen my will. Only if I could persevere, I could definitely see the most beautiful rainbow and the most brilliant success.

"But how should I find inspiration?" The previous novels were entirely based on my own experience. I don't know how to find a bright spot that could capture the readers. This was also the reason why I had stopped recently.

"Then why don't we go travel and relax?" He thought that perhaps a short trip would help me regain some confidence in writing.

"Okay." I quickly agreed. Han Anli was right. I really had to go out and relax. I thought that I hadn't been out on a trip for a long time because I had to earn money to support my family and because I had to live in poverty. I might be able to relax myself if I really did.

I immediately called Sister Wang and told her that I was going to travel, so I had to ask for leave from the company. On the phone, Sister Wang seemed to be unhappy with the fact that I hadn't been able to make any changes in the past few days. She was actually going to travel now, but when she thought about my current situation, she still helped me report it to the company.

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