522: C522 The Pain in His Heart

C522 The Pain in His Heart

After a long silence, Gu Qingyou replied, "Yaru, my marriage with Jiang Juan is about to come to an end. "

"What?"

Yaru exclaimed in surprise and realized that Mu Mu's body was moving because of her voice. She quickly covered her mouth and changed to whispering, "Qingyou, are you joking with me?"

Gu Qingyou minded her own business and covered Mu Mu with the blanket before replying, "Yaru, do you still remember when I asked you what kind of person I am in your heart?"

Yaru was nervous and held her breath, "I remember that I said that you were tough on the outside but soft on the inside and kind on the inside. "

Gu Qingyou lightly smiled and left the edge of the bed. She stood in front of the window of the children's room and looked at the garden that was dimly lit outside.

Yaru walked over and looked at Gu Qingyou with a face full of worry.

Gu Qingyou stroked her stomach and slowly said, "If I tell you that I am actually not the same as you think, I am not as good as you think. Do you believe me?"

Yaru instantly smiled, "Don't joke around. I have known you for so long. I still don't know what kind of person you are?"

Gu Qingyou turned around and looked at Yaru. After a long silence, she softly said, "Yes, you do not know. Because even if you are my best friend, you may not understand me. "

"Qingyou, why do you say that?" Yaru felt an inexplicable panic and lightly supported Gu Qingyou's arms. "Quickly don't say that. I will really be frightened by you. "

Gu Qingyou calmly shook her head and said seriously, "Actually I am not as good as you think. If you know what I have done before, you will be very disappointed in me. Very disappointed. "

Yaru was stunned and laughed, "How could I be disappointed? I. . . "

"You still remember Ji Yuchen, right?" Gu Qingyou suddenly asked.

Yaru was stunned for a moment because she had not heard this name for a long time before answering. "Of course I remember. He used to live next door to Aunt Shu's residence. He helped you beat up the gangsters who came to collect your debt many times. . . Oh, I still remember that he was very handsome. At that time, I wanted to pursue you, but unfortunately, I was busy with the show. . . I didn't ask you specifically. . . Later on, you told me that you made a deal with Jiang Juan and didn't mention that person again. I thought that person probably wouldn't have a chance. . . "

Gu Qingyou slowly closed her eyes and said in a soft voice," Actually, I have dated him before. "

"Have we dated?" Yaru was stunned once again.

Gu Qingyou closed her eyes for a long time. "Yes, I had a relationship with him. . . Later, because Ye Shuo found me to make a deal with Jiang Juan, I broke up with him. "

Yaru was shocked, "Why did you. . . You never mentioned it to me before? Aunt Shu also did not say. . . "

Gu Qingyou answered truthfully, "At that time, I originally planned to tell you. But not long after I went out with him, Ye Shuo came looking for me. So I broke up with him. After that, I thought that since we had already broken up. . . As for Aunt Shu, she was in the hospital at that time. I didn't tell her either, so she never knew. . . "

" Why did you have a boyfriend at that time? You even made a deal with Boss Jiang? " Yaru shook her head, seemingly unable to understand this matter.

Gu Qingyou finally opened her eyes, but her eyes were slightly unfocused as she spoke in a cryptic manner, "Because at that time I only wanted to get the money from the transaction. Furthermore, I do not love Ji Yuchen. When I am with him, I have always been using him to protect me and Aunt Shu. "

When Yaru heard this, her eyes flickered and she was stunned on the spot for a long time.

Next, Gu Qingyou told Yaru about the matter of Ji Yuchen finding her a few days ago and also told her that she had once left her and Jiang Juan's child in the lurch. . .

These facts naturally brought about a longer silence for Yaru. She kept looking at Gu Qingyou but did not know what to say.

Gu Qingyou had already made all the mental preparations before she decided to be honest with Yaru. At this moment, facing Yaru's silence, she calmly said, "Now you know. . . Why I said that I am not as good as you think, right?"

Yaru's eyes quickly turned red and she lowered her head. "At that time your situation was so severe, why didn't you tell me. . . "

Gu Qingyou choked and said, "Because I already owe you a lot, I will continue to ask for your help. It will only be a bottomless pit. . . I have already implicated Aunt Shu. I don't want to implicate you anymore. "

Yaru shook her head forcefully and looked at the sky blue window. "You have done wrong. You know what? You shouldn't have traded with Boss Jiang, because you chose to trade with him. You were destined to break up with Ji Yuchen, and you were also destined. . . To leave your own child in the lurch. Because you have chosen to betray your own personality. "

Yaru paused for a moment and then said," From the moment you chose to break up with Ji Yuchen, you betrayed your personality. "

Gu Qingyou's chest throbbed in pain and her large eyes stared at the light blue sky flower above her head for a long time. "I know. I always knew that I had chosen the wrong path. Unfortunately, I didn't have a choice at that time. . . I didn't want to use someone I didn't love. I also didn't want to implicate Aunt Shu, and I also didn't want to be squeezed by my mother, Qu Liyuan, in the future. Live a life that will never change. . . "0

Hearing that, Yaru gently hugged Gu Qingyou and lifted her hand to wipe away the tears flowing out of Gu Qingyou's eyes. "So, Boss Jiang is unable to forgive you because of the child's matter?"

When mentioning Jiang Juan, Gu Qingyou's chest felt intense pain. She looked at Yaru in a daze, "Even if it was you, it would be very difficult to understand what I did at that time, right?"

Hearing this, Yaru was silent.

Gu Qingyou turned her face to the side and then raised her hand to wipe away the tears on her face.

"Qingyou, it's not that I don't understand, I just. . . " Yaru spoke apologetically but did not know how to say it. She felt so heartache for Gu Qingyou's tears at this moment.

Gu Qingyou said in pain, "You don't need to comfort me. . . Even I am unable to forgive myself, let alone you all. "

Yaru once again tightly held Gu Qingyou's arms and said softly, "But no matter what, I am very clear that you are not a cruel woman and also not a vain woman. You have always been the tough but soft and kind woman in the bottom of my heart. Your past decision was because of helplessness. . . "

Gu Qingyou did her best to widen her eyes and did not let the tears gather in her eyes. She took a deep breath and maintained her calm as she said, "No matter what reason I have, I caused the death of my own child. This is the truth. "

Yaru quickly consoled, "Perhaps this was not your fault at all because Xia Qingchen was the one who harmed you first. Perhaps even if you tried your best to protect this child at that time, you would not be able to save him. . . "

"This is only an excuse because I did not want to protect the child at the first moment. " Gu Qingyou's voice was filled with grief as she spoke truthfully.

Yaru could not help but choke, "But this is also not your fault. Your fate is too cruel and it did not give you a good path to walk. . . Even if Boss Jiang blames you, he shouldn't have divorced you. "

Gu Qingyou sniffled and said calmly, " You misunderstood. He didn't plan to divorce me. In fact, since he chose to go to London, I knew it. He wouldn't divorce me. However, he did not return on Mrs Jiang's birthday today. He also let me know. Even if my marriage with him is kept, he won't love me anymore. . . "

"Why do you say that?" Yaru asked doubtfully.

Gu Qingyou's throat tightened, "Because I texted him before. "

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